Summer is almost over, and I'm not sure what I did with it. The time between September and December is when I decide my goals for the next year and my full-length writing project. Usually, by June, I've decided what I want to write, and I start plotting it with post-its around my office. (Shout out to the writers of Being Mary Jane) I'm struggling to settle on a story because I'm afraid of rejection.
When I graduated from Northwestern, I couldn’t write because I was trying to be gross and edgy like the writers most professors favored. I forced myself to produce something commercial for American audiences. When I finally freed to myself, I wrote a play inspired by my nephew Lupa. Oh Baby! Was my first production and the first show was sold out before opening night.
Riding the wave of being true to my artist's voice, I wrote my first web series, Bathroom Confessionals. That project ended up being a semifinalist for Sundance/YouTube New Voices Lab.
Unfortunately, the scripts I shopped this year (Rosemary Lane and OKCouple) didn't do as well. In fact, they bombed. I’ve got over 20 rejection letters in my inbox. Probably over 50 if I count the comedy fellowships and showcases I submitted to. For sure over 200 if I included potential client proposals and magazine pitches.
My gut says I have to write the story for me and not worry about winning awards and fellowships. Sadly the fear is crippling. Last month I interviewed Cas Sigers who shared how it took ten years before her script When Love Kills got picked up by TV One. The talented ladies of Milk + Honey (HBR feature), have been working on their web series for over five years. WOW! Who even has that kind of stamina and persistence?
I also interviewed Rebecca Roos (Dutch Caribbean filmmaker) about her creative process. The struggle is real for my fellow creatives back on the island. Even when you have talent; logistics and access to resources is a major challenge.
Dread, I’m totally just pouring my heart out right now.
As I prepare for September and the season of planning, I’d like to share a bit of what I’ve been reading. What are you doing? How's your summer going?
I imagine it can be very intimidating when I lump all of my achievements into one email, but I this monthly post because I want to have a dialog about things we might have in common. Do you related to any of the JBF stories (Bad Food + Bad Clients)? Email me your thoughts (HeyOnicia[at]oniciamuller[at]com) or talk to me publicly on Twitter (@oniciamuller). I kinda hate Facebook right now.
P&P's Daughter by Suprina Frazier
An inspirational romance novel. This is my like my fifth live story with Suprina. It's crazy; we get to ready the book WHILE she writes it! Who is this prolific goddess and how can I harness some of her power???
Tenth Year in The Sun by M.L. Wonder
A novel about sisterhood. You know the story is good when you start talking to the characters and advising them while you wash dishes. SMH! (HuffPost, The Breakup Queen)
Transforming Reality by Mia McCullough
A book on how artists can to get out of their own way and create dope ish. I'm re-reading this for a second time. I was gifted a free version as a PDF but literally the fifth sentence of the first chapter changed my artists life. I bought the print version just so I could highlight that gem.
#WednesdayWisdom by LT in the City
A weekly newsletter that's #BlackGirlMagic and positivity. I'm subscribed to over 20 newsletters, but I must read LT's thoughts within 7 days of posting. Good vibrations only.
I haven't finished read these books but I hope to by the end of the year.
Published Writings and Upcoming Events
Most of my recent publications are linked through out this post.
Flash fiction. Is despair haunting?
Ready for Innovation: Caribbean Entrepreneurs and The Hati Tech Summit (HuffPost)
interview with Darren Butcher and Kerry-Ann Reid-Brown
The Stoop: Shotgun Storytelling (Rosa's Lounge, Chicago)
August 10, 2017
The Stoop: How, Sway How? (Rosa's Lounge, Chicago)
August 31, 2017
Created in St. Maarten. Based in Chicago. I write, say funny things, and enjoy hanging with creative minds.
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When I'm not writing and performing, I help artists get organized. You should hire me to help you produce live events, promote your art, or manage resources so you can make the most of every opportunity.
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